FUCK
I’m freaking out again.
May 2010
94 posts
I hate everyone right now.
yesterday I was freaking out for almost no reason. I was shaking and I felt almost like I was going to puke. I don’t know what was wrong with me but it was weird and everything yesterday felt like a dream. Lately I am annoyed with everyone and everything and I feel bad when I accidently am rude or mean to the only one I can tolerate right now. I’m so sick of the vicious people in high school and I’m just sick of living in general. Things aren’t bad right now and I’m definitely not thinking suicide but I’m just tired of breathing and sleeping and everything mundane and repetitive. I’m not sure what’s wrong with me right now but I hope it goes away soon and everything is good again like it was a week or two ago. I don’t care if you understand or if you care but no one I know personally would understand or pay attention or I wouldn’t want them to, but I need to write it out and it would be nice to know other people feel this way too. okay I’m done bye.
“After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure… that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.”
—Veronica A. Shoffstall
Tick of Time
The Kooks
The Kooks - Tick Of Time
just keep listening.
